steel

sorry for the outburst. for making you worry.

you know i'm definitely NOT made of steel.

anyways, when i told you i love you, i really meant it.

i'll be back, i promise. just hang tight.

not the best timing, i know, but u can't exactly plan these things now, kan?

hope i didn't spoil your birthday month.

fair

I have wondered before, why is it that God allows me to go through a seemingly easy life so far, in comparison to other people as I know it. Worrying that my comeuppance and big tests would later come too big and perhaps too much.

I know why today.

Because what hurt others at x, will hurt me at the factor of 10 times that.

But I take solace in the faith that God will give you no more than you can bear.

a ship! a ship!

again, i strike another friendship under amusing circumstances.

it's funny how you can't really plan these things, and life always seem to have another trick up its sleeve.

as always, i shall let this ship, too, ride the wave.

some ships have crashed before, some has been smooth sailing, some broke at the peril of choppy waters - but just because the last kayak sank doesn't mean you should never get on another boat ever, eh.

really

really. no wonder i gravitate towards, ahem, the people i gravitate to.

brooding male types need not apply. sheesh.

sometimes

apa yang tak mampu saya katakan itulah yang paling berbekas di jiwa ini.

in life though, u just march on.

but sometimes, just sometimes...

anew

hee. just ask me out, you silly boy.
be quick about it or i may have to do it instead!

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going through all the motions of getting to know someone is not entirely a surefire thing, no matter how many times it's been done. this time around though, i'm keeping things simple.

but it is flattering to have someone who calls you sweetie, and such (cue for bimbo-ness taking over awhile). sweet nothings may not be only that... who knows?

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am finally at the new office. totally new surrounding, new things to do, new mindset, new lots of things. am getting used to the cubicle instead of the big swanky room. no biggie, except i need to really strip my boxes of stuff bare and find proper place for them, sometime.

ex-boss made a mistake of my actual last day, teehee. for all the great communication things he has taught me, it's funny that we could understand a simple thing as a last-day-at-work date differently.

anyways, it's adieu for now 19th floor, hello basement!

like a tattoo

Inilah theme song saya sekarang :)



Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you