I hope tickets are still available. It's been quite a long time since I last saw one of these. Tak kira, this time, I will MAKE myself go!!!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
I care. So I tried to understand - that's why I looked it up. But moving further along the sideline, in dealing with my own issues, again I tripped and stumbled. And suddenly I found myself too far out and it's already too late.
Be well, then. Really good to know you're doing fine, as fine as can be.
May God help us both heal. In peace.
For I sorely need to stop these tears that keep on falling.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
when i don't know, i can only guess. assume. you know i hate assuming.
because what i've learnt is that when i do the assuming, i can get things wrong. i've done that many times. make things worse. it's been proven.
that's why i always try to seek clarification. lay down the facts, the full story. you know that about me. rather than assume, i need to know what it is exactly.
but since you're not ready (i'm assuming here) to do so yet, it's not the right time yet, i suppose, i can only assume. so i assume it's about that npd thingy. or something i wrote in that card. or something i said on the phone yesterday morning.
please tell me which one, or if i'm wrong altogether even and it's something else entirely.
but if i'm right, then u must've had a thought about it that made u react that way. i would like to know that thought, so perhaps i could explain myself if i've conveyed a different message than what i really meant.
if i'm wrong about all of it, i hope u could tell me later what it was exactly.
at this point i hope i'm just plain over-reacting, as i'm wont to do these days, that i'm just perasan, as you know i'm prone to be.
much love, still.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Yes, I'll face it. Of course I will. I have to be responsible for the embers that I stoke.
Big heart. I'll try to face it with a big heart.
At this moment I do not know how it'll be come tomorrow and the day after, and the day after it.
So I pray that in this plunge, I'd be able to swim back safely to the shore in one piece, with my self-worth, sanity, trustability and heart all intact.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Bilikmu yang tersepi
p.s - aku baru habis baca Kasut Biru Rubina semalam (thanks, Aliya!). dan rupanya hari ni mereka di Amcorp Mall. pergilah dapatkan senaskhah. fiksyen pop untuk jiwa-jiwa hadhari, katanya.
p.p.s - tidak, tiada haiku dalam Kasut Biru Rubina. jadi apa kaitan dgn aku berhaiku? aku pun kurang pasti haha. mungkin sebab dah lemau buat budget jabatan.
p.p.p.s - yes, the above is dedicated to you.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
and when today her frantic cries came, there is absolutely no question what i'm gonna do.
babe, of course i'll be there for you.
i might have a ton of work and that departmental budget needs to be completed, but i'd still make some time. for you.
Monday, March 10, 2008
boy i wish i have more time, as usual.
in the meantime, last week i had several fab birthday celebration(s) turning 29, voted during the 12th general election, and woken up to a new state govt.
oh! ada lagi!
later lah, heh.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
And this is definitely a shocker!
"Unofficial: Opposition wins Selangor - 12.25am
Selangor has fallen into the hands of the opposition. PKR has earlier announced that its secretary-general Khalid Ibrahim will be named chief minister. In Selangor, DAP has taken 35 seats (DAP - 15, PKR - 11 and PAS - 9) out of the 56 seats in the state.Meanwhile, the opposition is also doing very well in Perak but it is still not clear how many of the 59 state seats it has won. The opposition has so far won Penang, Kedah, Selangor and Kelantan. "
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Each year my birthday celebration seems to get better and better :)
Thanks a bunch to all those who actually remembered, who remembered AND reminded everybody else, and last but not least even those who forgot BUT somebody else reminded them. And those who have no idea until i not-so-subtly told them hehehehe. Oh gosh, how I cherish each and every one of you!
And this is how I celebrated-
Day 1 : 'Pretend-ignore' breakfast, sushi lunch, scallops-and-calamari dinner (and bitching session), doughnuts pre-election chill session
Day 2 : To-die-for burger lunch, lobster dinner
Day 3 : Lunch-with-nature, and all-paid-for clothes shopping session!!
Oh why why why don't birthdays fall twice in a year??? Oops, but if that is the case, I'd turn 58 already by this time hahahaha. Ok tak jadilah, cancel.
I'm still missing two important persons though - my sister (who would only be back from 'voting holiday' in Kedah next Tuesday), and B (who had to cancel our burger lunch to visit her sick godson).
But all in all, I had a blast!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
i have no idea THAT's what i'm going to find out today.
sort of like, an early birthday present. gosh. but it's quite apt lah.
i don't know what to think.
will always give everyone the benefit of the doubt, though. as always.
at first i feel quite stupid, but then again, i HAVE had thoughts along that line all these while.
so, it's not like i've been wrong all along about it.
this is another moment when i hate to be right, although maybe only partly.
i'm glad i already made the right decision on who i'll be spending my time with for the next two nights.
saikos, believe me when i tell you WHY i put you guys on my priority list, hehe.