Tuesday, November 25, 2008

oh no Abg Nuar

ah, perlu ke, di waktu rembang sebelum sambutan harijadi Azlina semalam, aku mendapat berita dari Sister bahawa Abg Nuar telahpun mempunyai gefren iaitu seorang pemain boling negara.


i knew i should've taken up bowling more seriously!

Monday, November 17, 2008


at this trying time, she just said, same-o, same-o.


babe, if there's anything u need from me, i'll be there insya allah.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

blast from the past and forward to the future

There was a time that I loved those 'time capsule' email services and joined at random, typing out various messages to be emailed to myself in the future. So once in awhile I'll be receiving stuff from myself (yeah I know kinda...hahaha) and usually it's quite amusing. A check at the inbox today presented me with the following :

capsule@forbes.net to me

Greetings from your past. In the fall of 2005, you agreed to receive this message, which has been preserved in the Forbes.com E-Mail Time Capsule.

Here is the text of your message:

Hey, me in the future!
Today is 12/11/05, Abah just got back from India, Kochi. He lost his luggage for awhile but it's confirmed they have it. We're supposed to go to Om's place and visit Aqif, but it turned out they were in Subang.. frust la. Then patut nak pegi rumah Kak Yong, but tak jadi kut... semua Zzzzz je ni.

Yesterday I was thinking... whether I dare to make a move out of the current place at PP&P. Damn I don't dare to.. yet.
I hope... it's better now.


Heh. I think I'll write myself a 'reply'.

Dear me in the past,

Today is 16 Nov 2008. Abah and Mama are sleeping over at the kebun. We've 'upgraded' the pondok and it's now a fully-livable house, yea, complete with a bathtub! Abah is still travelling all over the place - he'll be going to Jakarta end of the month and is, in fact, finalizing plans to be placed in Kalimantan for a couple of years. Meanwhile Mama is still on contract with her workplace, they just renewed her tenure for another 2 years in September.Yeah, both still enjoying work very much and not showing signs of much slowing down.

Om and family have moved nearby, just 5 minutes away, so we get to see Aqif ever so often now. Aqif's going to be a big brother soon - sis-in-law is expecting another boy! This Syawal me and Sister FINALLY paid a visit to Kak Yong all on our own and we spent the night there on a whim. Haha. It's only Nilai and yet, it took years to finally happen haha. Shmucks.

On work - nope, in the end I decided not to go through with the JB plan. Am no more at the same old place though! Well, I'm still in PP&P, but not under that Section anymore lah. Earlier this year En Lan suggested that I go to the other Section, and this time I took the offer. More changes seem to be on the horizon as well, but it's still too soon to tell if things materialize and whether I'll finally take up the challenge. To answer your question - some things are still the same..and some things ARE better. So hope is not lost.

Some other happenings to be noted since 2005 - bought a car and a house (all rented out - erm, the house, I meant, not the car). Am in touch with primary school friends again thanks to Facebook (that's a new online social site, Friendster's all bust for me). Gained AND lost weight. Am reading non-fiction too these days.
Got crushed in the search of love. Had a marriage proposal from a married man (!), plans of an arranged marriage (one botched, the other...well, we'll see). And have come to LOVE Anuar Zain hahaha.

If I tell you how things are now, today, there's a lot of stuff that you'd be ever amused of. There's the constant factor I guess - life is always full of excitement and newly discovered facets.

So now, in 2008, I'm wondering how I'd be, in the next 3 years - 2011. Am hoping for the best, as always.

Yourself (in the future)

Fancy receiving news from yourself in the future - something that will never happen except in sci-fi movies. The concept itself is mind-boggling : If you know what the future would bring, then what? The future is a result of the chain of events that happened from the past, and if we then knew how it'll turn out, how would we ensure that our actions will be the exact requirements towards the future we're supposed to have? Or if we don't like the future, then how do we ensure what we do will change the results? Then again, if we change the results, that initially should be initiated by the fact that we already KNEW how things will turn out, if we succeeded to change things, theoretically the action of telling oneself about the future will not happen in the first place, and if that didn't happen, we wouldn't be changing it... ahh...it's an endless, impossible flux. Wormhole and all. No way.

Anyways, here's one to a better tomorrow, nonetheless!

oh abang Nuar

LOL. I can't believe I actually cried at Anuar Zain's live performance at Esplanade the other day. Yeah, I've always thought he's a really good crooner and there were a couple of his songs that I like, but it's not like I'm such a big fan or anything. In fact I went to the show... just because. There's a lot of things that I did which were simply 'just because', and this, was one of them.

Never did I expect to shed tears, but that was exactly what happened. Can't even remember which was the first song I cried to, but what I do remember is that my cheeks were wet at more than one number!

Oh Anuar Zain is GOOD.


Thanks for the dedication. I appreciate it.

Teman Terulung

Bila bertaut senyuman,
Mata berlirikan,
Memancarkan keluhuran,
Cerah kesederhanaan mu,
Seindah kejujuran mu.

Detik seia sejiwa,
Terungkap setia,
Tiada upaya sepi,
Mata kudup penantianku,
Hadirnya teman sejati.

Melangkah kita menjejak mimpi,
Bahgia berdiri dengan mu di sisi,
Harapan kita meniti hari,
Sentiasa seiring.

Paling agung teman terulung,
Tenunan emas sayap hidup ku
Tak ingin ku undur bertamu,
Bertakhta teguh,
Ke akhir waktu.

Ok, nangis lagi.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

farewell, dear Dato'

Today at 5.31, she'll be clocking out for the last time from our office building.

Our beloved Vice President, who's been helming the Division from the year 2004 with many great achievements and success stories.

When she speaks, she moves hearts. She talks softly but with utmost conviction.

The Iron Lady, some said of her. It's a mighty feat to reach to that level career-wise, in a place traditionally dominated by male engineers.

When she makes decisions, she'll put the most important things at the fore and yet will always try her best to be fair to all parties. At time when the Division is criticized unjustly, she will be the first to defend us and amend the perception.

Seldom (never for me) do people see her losing her cool, but you'll know when she's displeased and it just make you want to improve for the better. Our utmost respect for her is such that you just don't want her to be disappointed.

Her handwriting, gosh, I so admire her penmanship, which is so neat and beautiful, and for someone so busy like her, to be able to pen down her instructions so orderly and neat in the script everybody has come to recognize at a glance, is just such a marvel.

Her eye for details is unmatchable. She'll pore over the matter and remember what's there in the reports, so we always know to be prepared with the facts whenever one is called for a meeting. She's a sharp person and will always ask for the whole story before she makes up her mind.

Her concerns for the company in the future although she's already leaving, is evident in her farewell speech this morning as she outlined the challenges that we still had to face and her hopes for us all.

Although I've never been directly reporting to her, I've been blessed with quite a number of opportunities to spend around the great lady. Not only in the office, I've also been on a boat mencandat sotong by her side (we were the only ones who didn't manage to catch any squid that day though LOL), went snorkeling while on an offshore project trip, and taken a couple of rides in her car during the outstation jaunts. She'd even made the time to come to my Raya open house this year.

My tears fell as the State staff recited a poem dedicated especially for her. I just can't help it.

So farewell, dearest Dato'. Thank you very much for all that you've done for the company, for the advice and guidance, your kindness, your understanding, for everything. You're such a jewel who shines bright in the lives of many, and you'll never be forgotten. May Allah bless you and may you're bestowed with health, happiness and good fortune in future.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


i have no time lah for that. seriously. i understand better now.

will try to do better.

i'm glad i took the time for Abah tonight.

mengisi borang adalah memenatkan.

having wishes come true is rather bliss.

tq for the reminder as well - be careful what you wish for.

will most probably be having a ramly burger tomorrow, under the street lamp again.

no subway, i wasn't hungry, but please don't cancel your makan wishes just because i don't want to!

need to get ready.

starting clean.

don't let go of a good thing.



thank you again and again.


i shall speak my mind.