a ship! a ship!

again, i strike another friendship under amusing circumstances.

it's funny how you can't really plan these things, and life always seem to have another trick up its sleeve.

as always, i shall let this ship, too, ride the wave.

some ships have crashed before, some has been smooth sailing, some broke at the peril of choppy waters - but just because the last kayak sank doesn't mean you should never get on another boat ever, eh.

really

really. no wonder i gravitate towards, ahem, the people i gravitate to.

brooding male types need not apply. sheesh.

sometimes

apa yang tak mampu saya katakan itulah yang paling berbekas di jiwa ini.

in life though, u just march on.

but sometimes, just sometimes...

anew

hee. just ask me out, you silly boy.
be quick about it or i may have to do it instead!

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going through all the motions of getting to know someone is not entirely a surefire thing, no matter how many times it's been done. this time around though, i'm keeping things simple.

but it is flattering to have someone who calls you sweetie, and such (cue for bimbo-ness taking over awhile). sweet nothings may not be only that... who knows?

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am finally at the new office. totally new surrounding, new things to do, new mindset, new lots of things. am getting used to the cubicle instead of the big swanky room. no biggie, except i need to really strip my boxes of stuff bare and find proper place for them, sometime.

ex-boss made a mistake of my actual last day, teehee. for all the great communication things he has taught me, it's funny that we could understand a simple thing as a last-day-at-work date differently.

anyways, it's adieu for now 19th floor, hello basement!

like a tattoo

Inilah theme song saya sekarang :)



Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

of acceptance and peace, and forgiveness

It's exactly 2 months from the day that she left this world.

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Allan told me, u obviously din read wat i wrote abt Yasmin when she died.

I said perhaps not...didn't read the newspapers that much.

He gave me the link. I proceeded to the words that I've missed.

(excerpt) But late Saturday night, my friends and I had no more smiles or laughter. After I received the devastating SMS, my mind was clouded over with confused feelings. One acquaintance regretted never making good on his promise to have lunch with Yasmin, even though their offices were just next to each other. Another regretted not having a single photo taken with her.

“Because I thought she was going to be here for a long time,” he said.

And that is how we usually take people for granted. I have many things left unsaid and unsettled, and I always thought that one day, she and I would be able to look back at all the stupid, angry things we said to each other and laugh."

And fresh tears coursed down my cheeks in the wee hours of this Saturday morning.

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Even in her death, Kak Min continues with her legacy of love that she has imprinted on us.

Even in her death, she still managed to bring people together.

So much left still unsaid and unsettled... everyone has a list of this in their to-do pile, and at the end of the day most of it is still within our choice which gets said, and which gets done, and when.

I've came to learn that for some of the instances we may be in good time, while there could be others where the opportunity would be lost forever should we decide to forgo the moments chanced upon us when it did.

I truly believe the way to move forward is to always put our best intentions at heart, and in that way there should be little room for regrets no matter what life dishes to us, and to bravely accept that the things that happened, are supposed to happen. The past can never be changed, but the present and future can still be what we make of it.

And above it all, whichever way things go, God is great and all-knowing, and the greatest peace and forgiveness that one could seek from, of course, is from the Almighty above.

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May I thank thee, Allan, our 'il presidente', for this gift of his renewed friendship.
What? Of coz I la blog about this one! ;)

enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show