oh

Today, what you did, kind of hurt a bit.

What a fool I was to think that there's more to it than the surface.
Today's incident seals the deal on what I've suspected.
So...it's still just not much more than the surface, I suppose.


I really want you to be happy, you know? I thought you already are.
Or maybe you HAD to do what you did simply because doing otherwise would hurt YOU.


Oh well. I shan't let this pull things down anyways.

wonderful life

I wrote in my facebook today : love, is a wonderful experience.

It is.

To have loved, and be loved in return, is the greatest thing you'll ever learn. Haha. From Moulin Rouge (just love that movie, never thought Ewan McGregor could actually sing).

Agreed. Kan, kan.

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The new year has been rather eventful, although it's only mid-February.

Trips that someone made.
Trips that I'll be making.
A fresh start - enrolling to school again after all those years.
Getting into the groove at the new workplace.
Coming to terms with being mundane.
Charting the next course of things for the rest.

And I did away with several credit cards, some of which I barely use anyway (oh it was so satisfying cutting them into little pieces!).

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I'm starting to forget how it used to be.
And so I am wary to err.
Coz my heart has been torn to pieces, smashed and burnt.
I gathered the ashes, of which are mixed with clay that I found along the way, and molded it into the shape I best thought it used to be.

Doesn't it look like a brick now?

March forward, brick!

dance

ayo, merajuk la, apa la.

nanti cepat tua meh.

it takes two to tango, true.

but haven't you realize, i don't even know how to dance?

i just walk and hop.

steel

sorry for the outburst. for making you worry.

you know i'm definitely NOT made of steel.

anyways, when i told you i love you, i really meant it.

i'll be back, i promise. just hang tight.

not the best timing, i know, but u can't exactly plan these things now, kan?

hope i didn't spoil your birthday month.

fair

I have wondered before, why is it that God allows me to go through a seemingly easy life so far, in comparison to other people as I know it. Worrying that my comeuppance and big tests would later come too big and perhaps too much.

I know why today.

Because what hurt others at x, will hurt me at the factor of 10 times that.

But I take solace in the faith that God will give you no more than you can bear.

a ship! a ship!

again, i strike another friendship under amusing circumstances.

it's funny how you can't really plan these things, and life always seem to have another trick up its sleeve.

as always, i shall let this ship, too, ride the wave.

some ships have crashed before, some has been smooth sailing, some broke at the peril of choppy waters - but just because the last kayak sank doesn't mean you should never get on another boat ever, eh.

really

really. no wonder i gravitate towards, ahem, the people i gravitate to.

brooding male types need not apply. sheesh.