Saturday, September 26, 2009

of acceptance and peace, and forgiveness

It's exactly 2 months from the day that she left this world.


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Allan told me, u obviously din read wat i wrote abt Yasmin when she died.

I said perhaps not...didn't read the newspapers that much.

He gave me the link. I proceeded to the words that I've missed.

(excerpt) But late Saturday night, my friends and I had no more smiles or laughter. After I received the devastating SMS, my mind was clouded over with confused feelings. One acquaintance regretted never making good on his promise to have lunch with Yasmin, even though their offices were just next to each other. Another regretted not having a single photo taken with her.

“Because I thought she was going to be here for a long time,” he said.

And that is how we usually take people for granted. I have many things left unsaid and unsettled, and I always thought that one day, she and I would be able to look back at all the stupid, angry things we said to each other and laugh."


And fresh tears coursed down my cheeks in the wee hours of this Saturday morning.


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Even in her death, Kak Min continues with her legacy of love that she has imprinted on us.

Even in her death, she still managed to bring people together.

So much left still unsaid and unsettled... everyone has a list of this in their to-do pile, and at the end of the day most of it is still within our choice which gets said, and which gets done, and when.

I've came to learn that for some of the instances we may be in good time, while there could be others where the opportunity would be lost forever should we decide to forgo the moments chanced upon us when it did.

I truly believe the way to move forward is to always put our best intentions at heart, and in that way there should be little room for regrets no matter what life dishes to us, and to bravely accept that the things that happened, are supposed to happen. The past can never be changed, but the present and future can still be what we make of it.

And above it all, whichever way things go, God is great and all-knowing, and the greatest peace and forgiveness that one could seek from, of course, is from the Almighty above.

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May I thank thee, Allan, our 'il presidente', for this gift of his renewed friendship.
What? Of coz I la blog about this one! ;)

Monday, August 10, 2009

enjoy the show



I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

here and there

hey, two-timed! how fabulous!

hello there!! do you know this as well, or is it still just me?

anyhoo, now that i know, i'm chucking this junk.

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i can't believe how i should've known all along, but i didn't.

guess there's a time for everything.

betrayal

tell me if you can accept this -

' i betrayed your trust, but i really did it because i love you. because i care.'

no surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no,
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

- Daughtry

there with

this, is so me