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Cubaan

2011-09-23T20:41:00.001+08:00

This, is a test for blogging via the blogger app.

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

2011-03-23T00:46:00.001+08:00

The concept of affordable memory erasing, so far, are only in movies.Inadvertently though, over the weekend I found another way to replace those memories you wish to erase.By : creating new memories of similar nature, somewhat, but with new elements.And thus now should someone mentions road trip, I carry the freshest memories and let it run over the old ones.----------AM, IH, NIG, ZMN, II, F,

Terima Kasih Cinta @ Istana Budaya

2011-02-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

"cinta, tegarkan hatikutak mau sesuatu merenggut engkaunaluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa" Cinta. Love.L-O-V-E. That four-letter word that makes the world go round. Last weekend I had the opportunity to catch the preview of Terima Kasih Cinta (TKC) at Istana Budaya. TKC is basically a musical adaptation of the 2006 movie CINTA by Khabir

yet another new beginning

2010-10-08T10:40:00.002+08:00

Formally received the good news today at work...alhamdulillah.Just did some 'digging' and realized that it's EXACTLY one year (to the day!) of my first day starting duty at the current office, ain't that such a nice coincidence?Truthfully, I did have some doubts when I was first informed of moving here. Which was to be expected due to leaving one's comfort zone for uncharted waters, what more in

lucidity check

2010-09-17T00:13:00.003+08:00

I dreamt that it was freezing. Perhaps it was winter. Bundled in a heavy jacket, I was still so cold and he offered to warm me up. He assured me that he meant well and took my icy hands in his.Later I headed to a play, which turned out to be canceled under really absurd circumstances.Manifestation of daytime thoughts can be quite amusing.

short blues song

2010-08-04T10:37:00.003+08:00

I said that I wish to just be a 'hati batu'.AM told me, that a heart wants what a heart wants.Haish. This period of the blues must be over soon, soon!Hati yang tercalar, baiklah segera.========================Ok. Reasons for joy.Boss told me that they're scheduling the interview for next week. Although I'm still waiting for the HR calling letter, am already nervous and in anticipation of the

di bumi nyata

2010-07-30T13:57:00.002+08:00

1.awak, sampai hati buat saya begitu.oh, memang. salah saya sebenarnya kerana menyangkakan yang terbaik.di bumi nyata ini, saya seharusnya berhenti di simpang itu.2.this too, shall pass.i move forward, licking the banoffee pie stickiness off my fingers.3.despite my dengue episode, i passed! reason to celebrate.

of light, or none

2010-07-14T00:30:00.001+08:00

as much as i'm the uber-idealist and forever focusing on the silver lining in every cloud, sometimes, just sometimes, i could lose hope too.nothing in particular, as my memory is short.

the road less travelled

2010-05-30T23:58:00.004+08:00

if you ask me, yes, actually, i do feel tired sometimes.but it's of the good kind.i just learn to not dwell too much on the fact that my weekends are now few and rare in between work/family/classes. all those social outings have taken a backseat. and i make the best out of whatever free days i actually have, which has decreased considerably in number. even public holidays are no guarantee that i

ouch

2010-04-21T23:55:00.002+08:00

bla bla bla yak yak yak. see.and still, almost every time, i just hurt myself a bit every time.i know i shouldn't, and yet like a moth to flame, i threw myself at the very thing that i know will only make me bleed.for every action, there's a reaction.i shall stand as long as i can and reach as far as i'm able to.i suspect i'm a closet that too.ah, pain. be still. the choice is there, all mine to

Daremo Shiranai

2010-03-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

Dear Kak Min, I watched Daremo Shiranai again yesterday. And the day I saw it for the first time at LB came to mind. You expected me to cry, and I did buckets! You had always expected my tears :) You said, "Those tears come from God".You were the only person who treat my tears and the fact that when I cry they run into rivers as something not to be ashamed of, and in fact, you made it as

oh

2010-03-25T12:32:00.002+08:00

Today, what you did, kind of hurt a bit.What a fool I was to think that there's more to it than the surface.Today's incident seals the deal on what I've suspected.So...it's still just not much more than the surface, I suppose.I really want you to be happy, you know? I thought you already are.Or maybe you HAD to do what you did simply because doing otherwise would hurt YOU.Oh well. I shan't let

wonderful life

2010-02-20T00:46:00.003+08:00

I wrote in my facebook today : love, is a wonderful experience.It is.To have loved, and be loved in return, is the greatest thing you'll ever learn. Haha. From Moulin Rouge (just love that movie, never thought Ewan McGregor could actually sing).Agreed. Kan, kan.--------------The new year has been rather eventful, although it's only mid-February.Trips that someone made.Trips that I'll be making.A

dance

2009-12-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

ayo, merajuk la, apa la.nanti cepat tua meh.it takes two to tango, true.but haven't you realize, i don't even know how to dance?i just walk and hop.

steel

2009-11-18T09:46:00.003+08:00

sorry for the outburst. for making you worry.you know i'm definitely NOT made of steel.anyways, when i told you i love you, i really meant it.i'll be back, i promise. just hang tight.not the best timing, i know, but u can't exactly plan these things now, kan?hope i didn't spoil your birthday month.

fair

2009-11-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

I have wondered before, why is it that God allows me to go through a seemingly easy life so far, in comparison to other people as I know it. Worrying that my comeuppance and big tests would later come too big and perhaps too much.I know why today.Because what hurt others at x, will hurt me at the factor of 10 times that.But I take solace in the faith that God will give you no more than you can

a ship! a ship!

2009-11-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

again, i strike another friendship under amusing circumstances.it's funny how you can't really plan these things, and life always seem to have another trick up its sleeve.as always, i shall let this ship, too, ride the wave.some ships have crashed before, some has been smooth sailing, some broke at the peril of choppy waters - but just because the last kayak sank doesn't mean you should never get

really

2009-11-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

really. no wonder i gravitate towards, ahem, the people i gravitate to.brooding male types need not apply. sheesh.

sometimes

2009-10-24T17:36:00.003+08:00

apa yang tak mampu saya katakan itulah yang paling berbekas di jiwa ini.in life though, u just march on.but sometimes, just sometimes...

anew

2009-10-11T13:40:00.003+08:00

hee. just ask me out, you silly boy.be quick about it or i may have to do it instead!------------------------going through all the motions of getting to know someone is not entirely a surefire thing, no matter how many times it's been done. this time around though, i'm keeping things simple.but it is flattering to have someone who calls you sweetie, and such (cue for bimbo-ness taking over awhile

like a tattoo

2009-10-03T11:36:00.002+08:00

Inilah theme song saya sekarang :)Tattoo - Jordin SparksOh, oh, ohNo matter what you say about loveI keep coming back for moreKeep my hand in the fireSooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking forNo matter what you say about lifeI learn every time I bleedThat truth is a strangerSoul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be freeTo admit that I'm wrongAnd then change my mindSorry but I have to move

of acceptance and peace, and forgiveness

2009-09-26T01:54:00.008+08:00

It's exactly 2 months from the day that she left this world.------------------------------------Allan told me, u obviously din read wat i wrote abt Yasmin when she died.I said perhaps not...didn't read the newspapers that much.He gave me the link. I proceeded to the words that I've missed.(excerpt) But late Saturday night, my friends and I had no more smiles or laughter. After I received the

enjoy the show

2009-08-10T23:46:00.003+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middleLife is a maze and love is a riddleI don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've triedAnd I don't know whySlow it downMake it stopOr else my heart is going to pop'Cause it's too muchYeah, it's a lotTo be something I'm notI'm a foolOut of love'Cause I just can't get enoughI'm just a little bit caught in the middleLife is a maze and love is a riddleI

bye, Kak Min

2009-07-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

Of course I didn't wear black at her funeral.

here and there

2009-07-08T23:17:00.003+08:00

hey, two-timed! how fabulous!hello there!! do you know this as well, or is it still just me?anyhoo, now that i know, i'm chucking this junk.-----------------i can't believe how i should've known all along, but i didn't.guess there's a time for everything.

betrayal

2009-07-08T23:15:00.001+08:00

tell me if you can accept this -' i betrayed your trust, but i really did it because i love you. because i care.'

no surprise

2009-07-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and roundAnd now I think that I've got it all downAnd as I say it louder, I love how it soundsCause I'm not taking the easy way outNot wrappin' this in ribbonsShouldn't have to give a reason whyIt's no surprise I won't be here tomorrowI can't believe that I stayed till todayYeah you and I will be a tough act to followBut I know in time we'll find this was

there with

2009-07-08T00:49:00.001+08:00

this, is so me

this

2009-06-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

this, here, is my trust. please be careful what you do with it.because, like the song by Tony before his death in Sell Out! -'after every mistake i'm still optimistic to the core...'

changes

2009-06-15T23:51:00.001+08:00

oh, new post.new office.same building though. haha. just a different room at a different building level.new boss. but not too unfamiliar.new tasks, with some of the same 'old' ones tagged to it.i now fully understand the SIBUK-KEJE-SAMPAI-TAK-SEMPAT-MAKAN-MINUM concept to a new level. gosh.same crowd, with new additions.new plans too for 2010.----------------------------you know those first two

post-saturday

2009-05-23T23:14:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish there's a clear line.but there never was one.engkau. aku terkadang ingin sahaja berkata - jangan. sudah.yang terlalu itu, sukar untuk aku.kerana aku berperang di dalam.--------------another night of revelations. the good kind, today.perceptions are altered.i have nafh to thank.

info bits

2009-05-17T19:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes, too much information may make you a bit uneasy.i've been responsible for something to happen based on available information at that time and thought it was the best decision compared to others' choices.but now i'm not so sure. after the additional info i chanced upon today (yes, over the net), somehow, i have a feeling that it may have the potential to instigate changes that may not be

sold to SELL OUT! ($311.0u7!)

2009-05-12T23:31:00.006+08:00

supposing i told you i loved yousupposing i said i couldnt get you out of my headsupposing that's what i saidwould you hold my crush against me?would you turn and say to me...you're not my typedon't get your hopes all highi wouldn't sleep with youtill the day i dieno!oh no!'You're Not My Type', soundtrack from 'Sell Out!' ------------------------------------Oh, just go and watch this really

it's a small world after all

2009-05-04T23:52:00.002+08:00

such a day in history it was, eh.oh how it's a small, small world. networks overlap. social circles could still touch somewhere, no matter how off-tangent one may think it is.A.- want to watch X? YES- watch X with Y? YES- make plans for the day? NO- want to come with me? YESB.- ask the question again? NO- reply the sms? YES- make the detour? YES- tell earlier or later? LATERseemingly-little

how-to : give your touch-n-go card a negative balance

2009-05-01T23:31:00.007+08:00

1. reload touch-n-go card no. 1 (TnG1) with lots of RM.2. put TnG1 in smart-tag unit. use as usual.3. apply for touch-n-go card no. 2 (TnG2) because it's a Zing card and will reload automatically.4. receive TnG2 in the mail. instruction says to activate by swiping at any TnG toll lane.5. decide to drive somewhere that involves the PLUS highway.6. decide to activate TnG2.7. took TnG lane at the

2009-04-27T09:28:00.004+08:00

1. sometimes i still find it a bit amusing, when we communicate at work and it's with a colleague who has also been a classmate wayyy back in primary / secondary school.2. siapa2 yg nak suggest aku kena selsema babi tu mmg nak kena. cheist.3. oh no oh no may is fast approaching and i've not finalized all the plans yet!

twist

2009-04-20T17:45:00.003+08:00

"in the twist of separation..."Don't you just miss Take That?Oh, and I miss you. Demm.More damneder is the fact that I know you don't miss me at all. Heh.Demm sungguh.----------------------------------My body aches all over today. Ow. Ow. Ow.The twist points on the ankles hurt.Twisting the hand even just a bit hurts.Straightening the arms hurt.Going up the stairs hurts at every step.Sitting down

being aunt agony

2009-04-12T22:09:00.001+08:00

= ted, my home got hijacked laaa. + huh? hijacked like how?we went from talking about a hijacked home to purging episodes to power stations to taxes to books to life plans and more. AJ is one of those friends who would ring me up out of the blue with just one thing or even just one sentence to talk about, and like it usually is with friends whom I'm comfortable with conversationally like that,

c'est la vie

2009-04-03T09:19:00.002+08:00

1. curveballand when you think you'll just drown the sorrows by yourself, when you think there's no use even thinking about going on trudging along this line, when you think the best would be to just walk away and turn your back on things -*with a phonecall, life throws another curveball. and restores my faith (just enough) at the time that i truly needed it.2. clingyshe told me to stop being so

unfunny

2009-04-01T20:42:00.004+08:00

he disappointed me - he went back on his words, he forgot what i already told him, and then he had the cheek to make the same unfunny joke, TWICE.but in the end i still get what i needed - that's what matters most.practicalities rule. i shan't waste my breath telling how i felt like. at least not today.

surprises a-coming

2009-03-27T14:49:00.007+08:00

One.+ is there anything you want in particular, or do you wanna leave it to me to come up with a surprise?- can i request for both. one what i want and one you surprise me.+ of course! u get me a surprise too then.----------------------Two.- am in jb. any requests?+ why don't you surprise me?---------------------chehs. dah beso2 panjang tua bangka macam ni pun masing-masing masih nak surprise2

facebook is for old people

2009-03-22T16:46:00.001+08:00

at the kebun - "hey, this would make a good profile picture for facebook!"- *collective smirks from the kids*"what??"- "heeee facebook?"" heh, don't dream, i'm never gonna add you guys!"- "tak main la facebook""elleh korang mesti geng myspace ni... kids!"- "elleh facebook for old people laaaaa"" try facebook dulu baru tau! once you try it you'll never turn back!"Cheist. These kids... all of a

surat-surat cintaku ke atas dan panggilan kecemasan

2009-03-19T17:28:00.006+08:00

During a discussion about our pending matters, suddenly Mr. P said -"Oh, and that was a good letter you wrote, the one to XXX. It's already sent upstairs."Oh. Smile."Thank you, Boss. By the way, your room very warm la."------------------------------Earlier J was vetting through another of my memos."Ok lah ni, I didn't have much to re-do with this"(shoving the two memo pages scrawled here and

there

2009-03-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

that time...just watching you breathe. peacefully.and my heart burst with affection.just watching you breathe.

Thirty!

2009-03-06T23:55:00.001+08:00